This one has too many sentiments/emotions...

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Okay .. this is crazy coz i have an exam tomorrow and hv no clue abt anything .. orkutting is the last thing i shud be doing!! butttttt

... just cudnt resist this!!..
I made a painfully shocking discovery a while ago.. ! a bolt from the blue!!!...

I owned a wonderful Bookmark... ohhh I loved it.. n carried it with me as a lucky charm, as a faithful friend... as a .. ohhh too many things...
Arps n Ritz had sent it to me once on my B'day, right before exams ..
it said ... " Keep a straight face, no matter how life treats you"... with extremely cute cartoons to convey the msg .. (and they looked hand sketched by arpita--evn tho they werent actually!)...
On the reverse, a tiny wish , signed by the pair of them....
That was MY Bookmark...
reserved for all my special books...
its mere presence in my bag wud be so comforting ...
anddddddddddd .... some silly goose mercilessly tossed it in the trash bin while i was in college today :( :( ...
And she is asleep!!...
I cannot evn wake her up and demand/protest/wail ... WHY?!!..
I can see it lying there in the pile of filth.. good sense stops me from digging it out ... Dunno how m managing to resist this urge tho!.. It's like defiling the sanctity of The Bookmark .. My Bookmark.. the only bookmark I ever cared to use .. n kept so very close to my heart! ..
(Before this one, I used self made scraps of paper-bookmarks for this purpose)...
I cannot bear the loss!! nooooo....
I'm sure u 2 dont evn remember this one.. evn im shocked at how a simple bookmark can evoke such strong emotions in a feelingless cold fish like me...
but what do i do?!...wish i hadnt discovered this until morning!! ..
great ..this is just great...
first I throw away an my 'scribbling register' along with the raddi .. and now THIS!! :x ..

:( :( :( .. *sobs uncontrollably* ...

frustrated beyond all reason....

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Little George, where are you?

I looked for you all around…

Little George, give me a clue-

A wave of hand! A snap! A sound!!


I cannot call. How will that help?

And I dunno where you might be…

eyes watch me closely as I yelp;

I blankly stare at what I (donot) see!…


Little George, a nod will do..

Tho I see u nod once in a while..

It’s like I hold one Cinderella-shoe

I want the other, to hold and file.


If I had known!
If I could see!…

Nonetheless, So it would still be…


Little George, I hit the bricks.

Where are the Slaps, where are the Sticks… ;)
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PS: Orkut has just reminded me that CD's bday is approaching...
aaahh well .... i know for a fact that im low on the 'feelings' component .. n yet ... im looking forward to Dec 15 like anything!! ...
We may be miles apart CD(n u will never even read this i know), but in my heart, I pray for you ...
n thanks for being my Guardian Angel, whom I probably did not deserve!! ..
I never did anything to earn you, that I know... it was magical ..
It was a give n give from u, always ... n now ur gone...
n there will never be another you ...
(note: not getting senti !! )
just wanted to write this down ...
as a tribute to all the smiles u gave me .. in return for being me... :)
the comic hell that u gave me is a different issue, of course ...
I just wish u cud have made me cry , AT LEAST ONCE.... so that I cud console myself that I havent lost much ......
I wish I cud give u something back...
any tiny, solitary thing ...ever!!.....

(ufff... not senti-ing at all! ... just wondering .. pondering over the magic that u had brot into my life ...
cheeeeeeeeerrss ... God bless ...